On heartbreak

My relationships with the cats I care for are like waves—each one unique, with its own rhythm and energy. No two are the same. Some greet me with wide eyes and tails held

high, eager to share the day. Others linger in the shadows, curious but cautious. A few vanish the moment they hear the key in the door, and that’s fine. I meet each cat where they are and let the bond grow at its own pace.

With time and a little patience, even the shyest ones come to understand that I mean no harm. I bring comfort, fun, and a routine they can rely on. In return, they give me trust. That trust is everything.

If I’ve cared for your cat, I’ve loved them. Every single one. But sometimes, there’s a deeper connection. You feel it instantly, or maybe it builds quietly over time. Through love, through challenges, a bond is formed so strong that it almost hurts to close the door behind me at the end of the day. There have been times when I thought, "I could just scoop this one up and take them home." I won’t, but you feel me.

Some of those special ones stay with you forever. And some, heartbreakingly, don’t stay long enough.

I lost one of those tiny soulmates recently, and it’s been weighing heavily on my heart. His name was Louie—my big buddy. He passed suddenly, unexpectedly. He had been sick, but he carried it so lightly that we didn’t realise until it was too late. He was always his cheerful self. Just recently, we were together, sharing cuddles and laughter. His spirit was still bright. And now, I cry.

I’m sharing this not only to honour him, but also to give my grief a little space to breathe, as I hadn’t really had time to process it. Losing Louie also made me think of all the other dear kitty clients I’ve had to say goodbye to over the years, and motivated me to create this [page] where I can honour and remember them. Louie’s love is, and will continue to be, an inspiration to me.

Louie, you were pure joy in a furry body. I’ll miss our time outside together, making sure you and Lily were okay, playing on the carpet, your sharp little claws kneading my legs, and the endless scalp-licking sessions you gave me. You were clever, sweet, goofy, adventurous, mischievous, and adorable—all at the same time. I’ll carry you with me always. Thank you for being a welcome, happy presence at the end of rough days and for giving me something words can’t fully express. You’ll always have a place in my heart. I love you. Rest in peace, my little big guy.

In the picture: Louie, in my heart forever.